forgive no more you said,
crushed,
but i say forgive and forget,
hush baby, hush.

Independence and self survival (haha, it’s not that serious of course) are very important things to me. Family members and close friends know that I really loathe depending on others to reach for the stars. ‘Stepping stones’ might be a big no no to me, but well I’ve learnt to cope.

There were times when I felt aimless and purposeless. I was frustrated to the very core, and didn’t even realise the existence of good things around me! I was selfish and indulged in my own foolish self, and I boycotted myself from the rest of the world. I stopped socialising, and only went to events that I really needed to make an appearance. Sounds like I was quite an arrogant idiot hey?

I desperately needed a break, a breather or something. From everything, even from the world! Like a lost child who was looking for her mother in a crowded street of thousands, I was really terrified. Terrified beyond imagination and I’m not joking. I was greatly lost. 

And then came the biggest thing of my life. The great truth, I shall call it. The great truth that I’ve always had nasty dreams about. The great truth that I’ve always wondered about. The great truth that I’ve always questioned about. Although I’ve always anticipated the coming of it, the surprise attack of it completely shocked me. In both good and bad ways.

I missed the old me, the happy me. 

Have you heard of Murphy’s Laws? It sounds like this, “when shit comes, all shit comes in the worst possible ways at the same time”. Sounds fun?

But I persevered, thanks to the encouragement of family and friends. And now that I’m done with that period of my life, I’ve vowed to never let it bring me down ever again. I made a promise to love more, and to forgive more. Most importantly, I’ve learnt how to let go and see the good sides of people. I’m still learning how to be less pessimistic about life though. Capricorns, you can do it!

I’ve fallen in love with myself all over again. It’s a great reunion, it truly is.

p/s do enjoy cny on my behalf. Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Do remember to go home for reunion dinners if you can!

anyway, i truly hope this time it will be different.

a toast to a great new year ahead. with love, love and more love. we all need that the most, aye?

x

the rivers oh-so-flowy,

the birds oh-so-chirpy,

faith never fails to come lately,

and it leaves my heart oh-so-fluttery.

the real world never felt so true,

the grace and blessings never felt so true,

every part of you, let it be true,

and this really means i love you.

x

p/s i love all of you *hugs* 

x

x

you know you’re loved when they surprise you with a cake after a horrendously filling dinner of steamboat!

“A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.” – Walter Winchell

thank you, i’ll remember this forever. (:

and since i have like 15 more days to go, i decided to start straight away!

my friends, i have decided to..

*jeng jeng jeng jeng*

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lose 2 kgs in 15 days. yes, before new years and all to look warm (not hot, mind you) for the frosty winter (one can at least hope) new years! all in the love of narcissism and fashion. *looks longingly at the favourite pair of old jeans*

*steals a quick glance at the junk food corner in her bedroom*

x

nothing like my love for wasabi peas!

x

edit (after 2 hours): i ate like 1,234,567,890 more junk food ever since i wrote this post. so much for a reaaaaaaal diet.

*&$#*&@)@($#&*#$

ROAR!