and so it is Sunday. the day i dread almost the most lately. A package of inner conflicts coupled up with loads of unfinished work makes Yii Zhu an unhappy girl.

Sundays have been, in most of my life, the last day of the week. A day where I’m supposed to kick back and relax. A day to go out and have a hearty breakfast with the family. A day to do grocery shopping with the family. A day to watch re-runs of The Nanny!

It’s very unfortunate how everything is so very different now.

I shouldn’t say that I’m a person with adult responsibilities but most of us are on our way there. Sundays are now obviously both the last and first day of the week. As the first day of the week, Sunday is supposed to promise new beginnings but to me it’s more like a preparation day. A preparation day where I have to run through all my tutorial materials and readings and then worry about the breakfast(s)/meal(s) for the week. And now, I have additional stress from having the choice whether to go to church or not. C mentioned that going to church is not an act to proclaim one’s loyalty to church. I beg to differ (in my case anyway). It’s just a personal rant and i’m not aiming at anybody!

I think the church has been “commercialised”. Way too much that it’s getting on the pathetic edge. What’s with the whole idea that attending church on a regular basis will get you the ticket to heaven? I would like to think of the church as the place to renew your vows to God and to remind you of His glory. It is most certainly not an exclusive members-only place (which gives you members-only exclusivity thinggy like spas). Seriously, I cannot emphasize this enough. Worshipping can be done in the heart, and loyalty is an invisible thing. No one can argue about the physicality of loyalty.

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As a university undergrad, I do not ask for much.  I only ask for a quiet surrounding. I have learnt how to block out unwanted noise with science applications. In the long run however, what i really need is a stable and quiet heart. Then I will be able to block out all the unwanted ‘noise’ from within me. If not, I will just never find peace.

I should be less angry with people around me. I should embrace them and love them for who they are. Teach them what a real human is all about, no? Teach them what politeness is. Teach them what taste is. Teach them what loyalty is. Teach them what a human touch is. Teach them what un-selfishness is. Teach them what life is. It’s not really all about self-centeredness. My goodness.

Okay, now this was a really random post. But i felt the need to write. Just because.

the calmness, before the storm.

Teach us to number our days aright,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom. (Psalms 90:12)

Routines have been part of my life for a very long time, more than 19 years to be exact. It’s called r-o-u-t-i-n-e for a reason, am i right? Every day, i wake up to a brand new day and i go through my daily routines: i brush my teeth, i clean my face, i cook breakfast, i eat it, i get ready for school and the list goes on. I’ve never really stop to think about what every day really is. I never saw the value in every day. Every day was just, well, another day. Unfortunately, I overlooked the fact that some people actually wake up to wars and misery every day.

Let me just briefly quote what someone has to say about this:

“Humans should not build life only on the special occasions. We don’t live for special occasions. We should build our life on every day life. (emphasis added)”

i was stunned for a moment and the crowds around me faded. I took in a deep breath and started thinking about these wise words. Yes, I should build my life on every day life. Why have I never thought about this? Am I taking things for granted? Every day should be just as perfect as any other special occasions!

This gave me a whole new perspective. It truly is a gift sent from heaven.

Do you have people around you complaining that 24 hours a day is never enough? I have just the most right answer for it.

“Why should we complain about not having enough time to achieve what we want? THE most effective person in this world (achieving great things right now) have just the same amount of hours as you and me. 24 hours. Fullstop. (emphasis added)”

Don’t misunderstand the reason why I’m sharing these wise quotes with you. I’m not trying to change the way you look at things, I certainly will never do that. I’m, however, trying to plead you to take a look at your own life and decide what is best for it. Just stop whatever you “think” is important and spend 5 minutes reflecting on your life. Is this where you want to be, at whatever age you are?

Every day is special, God-sent really. I’m thankful for everything, are you?