Sundays have been, in most of my life, the last day of the week. A day where I’m supposed to kick back and relax. A day to go out and have a hearty breakfast with the family. A day to do grocery shopping with the family. A day to watch re-runs of The Nanny!

It’s very unfortunate how everything is so very different now.

I shouldn’t say that I’m a person with adult responsibilities but most of us are on our way there. Sundays are now obviously both the last and first day of the week. As the first day of the week, Sunday is supposed to promise new beginnings but to me it’s more like a preparation day. A preparation day where I have to run through all my tutorial materials and readings and then worry about the breakfast(s)/meal(s) for the week. And now, I have additional stress from having the choice whether to go to church or not. C mentioned that going to church is not an act to proclaim one’s loyalty to church. I beg to differ (in my case anyway). It’s just a personal rant and i’m not aiming at anybody!

I think the church has been “commercialised”. Way too much that it’s getting on the pathetic edge. What’s with the whole idea that attending church on a regular basis will get you the ticket to heaven? I would like to think of the church as the place to renew your vows to God and to remind you of His glory. It is most certainly not an exclusive members-only place (which gives you members-only exclusivity thinggy like spas). Seriously, I cannot emphasize this enough. Worshipping can be done in the heart, and loyalty is an invisible thing. No one can argue about the physicality of loyalty.

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As a university undergrad, I do not ask for much.  I only ask for a quiet surrounding. I have learnt how to block out unwanted noise with science applications. In the long run however, what i really need is a stable and quiet heart. Then I will be able to block out all the unwanted ‘noise’ from within me. If not, I will just never find peace.

I should be less angry with people around me. I should embrace them and love them for who they are. Teach them what a real human is all about, no? Teach them what politeness is. Teach them what taste is. Teach them what loyalty is. Teach them what a human touch is. Teach them what un-selfishness is. Teach them what life is. It’s not really all about self-centeredness. My goodness.

Okay, now this was a really random post. But i felt the need to write. Just because.

(note: only used a couple of times over the course of 4 months)

it will choose to stop working at the point in time when you REALLY need it.

I’M HAVING A BACKACHE AND IT STOPPED ON MEEEE! stupid thing.

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i’m in love with these chewy japanese candies!

Litchi means lychee! Isn’t the name adorable? I swear these cute little sweethearts are so fragrant/sweet/yummy that they remind me of the real fruits themselves!

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and so, my shoe fetish isn’t really gone.

5″ of goodness. absolute love <3

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most importantly though, i found myself a new pair of sunnies. Last year, I was silly enough to leave my sunglasses in the ladies. It was never found (by me, at least), ever again. Very sad scenario. T_____T And what a waste of money!

mum said i look good in these babes.

front view

side view

yes yes, i had a fringe cut. *bawls* it’s too short! *calms self* hair grows, thank God! anyway, that’s not the point. what do you think of the new sunnies?

i dislike some people with masks, ugh they’re fugly. i dislike their attitudes, and to hell with your ‘friendliness’. i dislike their ‘worshiping’, because to me they do not deserve a great God. i dislike their constant gossiping, when supposedly gossiping is a GREAT sin. i dislike their tastes, because it is more terrible than terrible. i dislike their selfish selves, and is that the way you want to share, oh what was it again, God’s love?

note to these people: we’re all the same, we’re humans for pete’s sake. love me as you love yourself.

note to myself: i have given a lot, but what have i received? maybe befriending good humans (and people without religion) are better than befriending all of you. I DECLARE WAR!

what is wrong with You? i have been an island for so long, and now You’re making it harder to reach these shores? just great.

contrary to popular beliefs that i am reasonably mature for my age (to hell with whatever you think of me now, it’s MY blog. M-Y my blog. *breathes out slowly*), i will still continue to vomit my thoughts into this post of pure hatred and anger discussion. to some, i have the gift of words and expressions. a very welcomed blessing most of the time, in fact. the only dilemma (personally) is the perfect timing to use it. we’ll just see how this post goes.

it’s funny how the world works, complete with all its perks and troughs. the latter is unfortunately very unfortunate for the more pessimistic and never fails to bring me great whiners, which i swear i will kill one day. it’s a pity i do not live along too well with pity (for those who can change their own destiny) but we’ll keep that topic for another day.

today i am going to focus on the big bullies in our lives, those who bring troughs to your life? yes, those big, fat bullies. it’s just fascinating to see bullies introduced into our lives out of thin air. worse, they trample into our lives leaving the green pastures with big, unwanted stomp marks everywhere. it’s hurt forever, and sadly flowers barely bloom there anymore. and we call them scars. it brings out the caution from within, and reminds us each and every time our radar detects another worthless jerk.

it is not, and i emphasize strongly again, NOT a love story. close this window if you are after some sappy, sad love story. i am no sentimental being, have you forgotten?

where should i start?

ahh, money. it is always about money, isn’t it? let’s not forget the word hypocrites too. i’m so hyped up in writing this post already. we’ll run through a background check on typical money-sucking, hypocrite jerks.

boastful, check. worthless, check. materialistic, check. lazy, check. scheming, check. created the famed empty-promises-machines, check. anything else you want to add? i would gladly edit this post here.

a personal favourite line from these people: i never did it for the money. did not, and will never do such a lowly thing!

i am impressed at the longevity of their lives, really. i (or someone else in my shoes) would have gladly paid some assassin handsomely to kill them off. *forgive me* but we’re good and noble people, so as usual we keep quiet and stay patient. true bullies to the very core, they are usually fully equipped with their fake smiles and good networking skills. why blessed with good networking skills, you may ask. i will give you a very good, satisfying answer to that: because they bluff and laugh and then bluff more, the cycle continues on! the society enjoys that, didn’t you know?

why can’t we have more honest and less cunning people in this world? it’s a dumbfounding question i will never have the answer to. or maybe, we do need some interesting challenges (and a fair share of jerks) in life to get the better out of life itself!

the bottom line is: i swear i will not let you hurt anybody important in my life and problems with you will only bring the very best lawyer traits in me. mind you, i do not forgive easily. count yourself lucky this time.

good luck, from yours truly. oh do remember that i will be watching, closely.

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