and so it is Sunday. the day i dread almost the most lately. A package of inner conflicts coupled up with loads of unfinished work makes Yii Zhu an unhappy girl.

Sundays have been, in most of my life, the last day of the week. A day where I’m supposed to kick back and relax. A day to go out and have a hearty breakfast with the family. A day to do grocery shopping with the family. A day to watch re-runs of The Nanny!

It’s very unfortunate how everything is so very different now.

I shouldn’t say that I’m a person with adult responsibilities but most of us are on our way there. Sundays are now obviously both the last and first day of the week. As the first day of the week, Sunday is supposed to promise new beginnings but to me it’s more like a preparation day. A preparation day where I have to run through all my tutorial materials and readings and then worry about the breakfast(s)/meal(s) for the week. And now, I have additional stress from having the choice whether to go to church or not. C mentioned that going to church is not an act to proclaim one’s loyalty to church. I beg to differ (in my case anyway). It’s just a personal rant and i’m not aiming at anybody!

I think the church has been “commercialised”. Way too much that it’s getting on the pathetic edge. What’s with the whole idea that attending church on a regular basis will get you the ticket to heaven? I would like to think of the church as the place to renew your vows to God and to remind you of His glory. It is most certainly not an exclusive members-only place (which gives you members-only exclusivity thinggy like spas). Seriously, I cannot emphasize this enough. Worshipping can be done in the heart, and loyalty is an invisible thing. No one can argue about the physicality of loyalty.

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As a university undergrad, I do not ask for much.  I only ask for a quiet surrounding. I have learnt how to block out unwanted noise with science applications. In the long run however, what i really need is a stable and quiet heart. Then I will be able to block out all the unwanted ‘noise’ from within me. If not, I will just never find peace.

I should be less angry with people around me. I should embrace them and love them for who they are. Teach them what a real human is all about, no? Teach them what politeness is. Teach them what taste is. Teach them what loyalty is. Teach them what a human touch is. Teach them what un-selfishness is. Teach them what life is. It’s not really all about self-centeredness. My goodness.

Okay, now this was a really random post. But i felt the need to write. Just because.

3 Comments »

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   Surprisingly I had a somewhat similar conversation to some of my friends regarding the above. We are who we are, deciding our own roads, changing a part of life as we go along its path. Lovely moment indeed, regardless of what it puts in front of us.

   Comment by Zephyr — August 30, 2009 @ 6:37 pm

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   true,a stable and quiet heart is what we need to filter all the ‘unwanted’ noise, but when u r being who u r, stick to urself, that calmness will come naturally. cheer up girl!

   Comment by ying ying — August 31, 2009 @ 8:52 pm

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   I think the church has been “commercialised”. Way too much that it’s getting on the pathetic edge.

   chung: it’s true some are like that but others aren’t. even those that are, i can only try to trust that in their heart, everything they do is God focused.

   What’s with the whole idea that attending church on a regular basis will get you the ticket to heaven?

   chung: There never was this idea. Essentially, in christianity, the only way to heaven is if you accept that Jesus died on the cross to redeem you and save you from your sins. No amount of good works will ever earn you a ticket to heaven nor any amount of going to church will be any good if one doesn’t have the core belief that Jesus is saviour. The act of going to church is ideally to get together to observe the sabbath day (the day God set aside for his people to worship him together and to relax and not do work) and to get together and worship Him, because worshipping him together in multitudes is different to worshipping him individually like in your weekdays.

   It is most certainly not an exclusive members-only place (which gives you members-only exclusivity thinggy like spas).

   chung: i feel sorry that you have to deal with this but not all churches are like that. mine’s quite friendly so far.

   Worshipping can be done in the heart, and loyalty is an invisible thing.

   chung: this is true. but worshipping in church is showing a different degree of trust and loyalty and faithfulness in God. It’s like telling your father you love him in front of an audience rather than just keeping it in your heart.

   just what i think, not intended for harm lol!

   Comment by chunghui — September 6, 2009 @ 11:27 am

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